Sexy vs. Dirty Fantasies and Blackout Bingo

EPISODE 7: Sometimes we have fantasies that we just can't live out and sometimes we can...the important part is going for that adventure.

Welcome to the seventh episode of the May Wyld West Show. 

So guess what? It's time again for the Mae Wild West Show Notes 

Now let's full send into today's episode. So guess what I did? Chickened the fuck out.

Can a fantasy be too dirty to share? Well with my conservative upbringing, all of them are too dirty to share and that has been one of the banes of my ability to explore fantasies, especially in the hotwife realm. How can a wife admit to her husband that she wants to get dicked down by several men, some of whom may have bigger dicks than him without a moment of concern that he will feel like he’s not enough. 

While this is no longer as big of a concern since we have been doing this for a while and the hubby’s self-esteem has yet to take a hit thus far it's still always something in the back of my head. This isn’t a bad thing because it means that I care more about his feelings and not hurting him than I do about anything else, which is how you stay married in the lifestyle.   

The problem isn’t with what we could call normal or sexy fantasies, which are the fantasies like having a mfm threesome where a single guy picks up on me at the bar and we all go back to our hotel room for three or four rounds of fucking like spider monkeys in heat. Throw in a little dp and some anal and you’re getting pretty spicy. As much as I love being the center of a May Wyld West sandwich it’s not exactly the adventurous fantasies that live rent-free in my brain and that I have such a hard time articulating. 

The next type of fantasies are the dirty fantasies, which I would say tend more towards creating a whole scenario or scene. For example, one of my dirtier fantasies is a gangbang that starts with my hubby and his “buddies” playing poker or watching a game while I serve drinks and sandwiches in revealing clothing until they all ravage me. 

Another one that I mentioned in one of the episodes of the May Wyld West Show is the silhouette tent that we saw at Glencoe Campground during the Sturgis Rally. They had a tent set up that people could go have sex in and the light behind the tent made the silhouette of you having sex visible to every Tom, Dick, and Harry, and trust me Sturgis has plenty of hair, watch while you’re fucking. 

Then the third kind of fantasies are the “Give Me an STD Dirty Fantasies” which are the kind that in the back of my mind are super fucking hot but not something that I could probably do in reality because reality has consequences, like STDs. With my exhibitionist streak, one of these fantasies would be dogging, or random car sex whether that's oral or actual penetrative sex or a glory hole and a seedy adult arcade. 

Yes, you could do both these things with some small modifications to make them safe, sane, and with some STD mitigation but the extra dirtiness and risk are part of what makes my panties wet. I’m not one to yuck someone's yum and I like the dirty parts despite or maybe because of my conservative childhood. My mom’s voice in my head telling me that “good girls don’t do stuff like that” is a constant issue I have to deal with.  

I totally chickened out on the silhouette tent and the worst part is that I didn’t even have the guts to tell the hubby that I was into it. Someone suggested it to us and I got all embarrassed and red in the face and just couldn’t own up to my fantasy to the one man who is always down to try whatever crazy crap I can admit to. The problem is me judging me. If I am judging me then of course I think that everyone else is judging me with the same measuring stick. 

This is what scares the shit out of me about other swinger wives. Maybe it's small-town politics or maybe it's a problem everywhere but women can be mean, judgy, catty bitches and I am the first to admit that I can too. What if these other women that I want to like me think I‘m a super freak, and not in a good way, because I fantasize about these “dirty” things?

First of all, it’s tough to find a couple that we can all get along and vibe together with the lack of available options and I really want the hubby to have as many adventures where he gets to try new people, activities, and fun but I’m also bi and damnit picking up women is hard. I don’t want to make it harder by admitting to something that I am afraid will be an instant hard pass. 

As usual, by the time I have outlined a new episode or written out all the feelings I am having about a problem, I have figured out that I have 99 problems, and 98 of them are made-up scenarios in my head, not reality. People are judgy but do we really wanna hang out with judgy people? If they are going to be judgy we should just get it out of the way and not waste everyone’s time. 

However, I don’t think twice about whether or not the rules and structure of BDSM are my kinks or not; it’s not and I don’t judge others for enjoying it. I just don’t understand it and that can come off as judgy too. Maybe being judgy is how we find others who share our kinks.  

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